Lust or Love?

exactly 4 month ago i had to end a 4 year relationship where we had to part ways. Since then my life has never been so miserable while being so lonely. i had to deal with those situation when u needed someone the most.



During that period i met again with my former schoolmate. We connected back from FRIENDSTER, where she gave me her number. well.. i was busy with some project that week. At the end of the week i called but it was the wrong number. So, i send her a msg through FRIENDSTER, and the next morning she replied saying sorry for not noticing the mistype of her phone number.



That night i called and we talked for hours. The next week we started texting and calling. At first, I was just looking for a friend to talk. but I was lonely and she had been my only friend other than the usual friends i had.



It was on a friday night near my final exams, when i asked her to accompany me to study, which just was a reason to ask her out. well, intentionally i was going to study. that night i brought her to mcdonalds and we chatted for a while before we agreed to go for a stroll at downtown cheras. it was raining lightly, so i grabed her hand so we didnt get separated in the crowds. The rain were getting heavier as i put my arms around her and covered her forehead with my hands since we didn't bring any umrella. After a few rounds, we head back to the car and went elsewhere. Oh yes, i borrowed my friends perodua kembara that night. Thanks Khai a.k.a. Boss.

After some while, i decided to go to putrajaya and hang out at the famous putrajaya bridge for a minute before the police asked us to leave. We then went to a mamak stall at precint 9 and stayed for a cup of drink. even then we were still holding hands as we talk and had our drinks.

At some point i had a feeling that someone was watching me, i turned right and there they were. Two friends of mine were watching at me and smiling. as they saw i had found out they were looking at me, they waved and smiled. hehehe.....

So, after a while i suggested that we move on to some other location. So, i start the car an there we go... while i was driving aimlessly and heading to Kuala Lumpur at 4.30a.m., she started to feel drowsy and sleepy. I offered my shoulder and she leaned to me as i drove throughout the city of Kuala Lumpur.

While she was sleeping, i wraped my arms around her so she didnt feel cold. suddenly her arm reached my waist and hold me tightly. Well, i was shocked, i never had anyone to hug me but i didnt wake her up. She's probably tired. better let her sleep first. So i head back to send her home

I had trouble when paying the tolls as i dont want to wake her up. But she's did not even move.

As i reached her housing area, she woke up realising that she is near home. She looked at me and smiled. She's so sweet when she smiles. I guess at thats what made me like her. While arriving at her doorstep, i asked her to watch the sunrise with me. She waited and we talked until it the sun rose. Then, when she left the car she smiles at me and waves me goodbye.

I reached home at 7.30a.m. smiling. my friends were still sleeping. i was so tired and went to bed. that was the first time in 3 weeks i had smile on my face as i approach slumberland...

So is this love or lust?